All I Ever Wanted
The Airborne Toxic Event
I can only say these things to you while you’re sleeping.
I hear the hum from the wires and the
Sounds of the morning creeping.
I lie awake and pretend, you can hear me.
And you tell me that your scared that you’re
Turning into your mother.
I feel myself, turning into my father.
So we can lie to each other like they do,
And say we’re so happy.
It’s easy when you’re young and you still want it
I turn over in bed and I feel my heart beating Faster,
I stare out the window and think I might Scream.
And I could tell you that you’re all I ever Wanted,
Dear I could utter every word you’d ever
Hope to hear.
I shudder when I think that I might
Not be here forever, forever, forever.
The time we were alone together at the station.
You were so quiet like a child and you told me
You wanted to be taken.
I just never though of you as the kind of girl
Who would do that.
And you suddenly seem like
Some faceless thing in my grasp.
And I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t find it
Exciting, your eyes so lit, your face so warm and
And I could tell you that you’re all I ever
Wanted, dear I could utter every word you’d ever
Hope you’d hear.
I shudder when I think that I
Might not be here forever, forever, forever.
I could tell you that I’m always going to love
You like the virgin bride you were that night, but
I’d be lying.
Love is defying.
All I can think is that it must a kind of Rebellion,
To arm these fields like soldiers and Slay them.
I can tell you that you’re all I ever wanted dear,
Through the din of your breathin while you’re
Sleepin here, and you wake and you ask me if I’m
Gonna to be here forever, forever, forever.
Your face so twisted and your eyes alight,
I want to tell you I can save you when you cry at night.
But I’ll be trying.
Love is defying.
Won’t you stop crying?